这真的是自找的
你曾听说过有一位这么为公司‘付出‘的员工吗?
她为了要签下一单打生意，连客户都还没有签，
就自掏腰包买了客户想要的入门票，
美金400百多块，整整工钱的一半，
到今天还不知道是否客户会签不，
而她的同事完全不知道这件事情，
为了继续生存，连最讨厌的兼职，
都必须接受，因为除了付这一笔，
她还要承担家里买新洗衣机的费用
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同样的，为了要帮另一个客户
保留很重要的版权，
因为客户没有办法再给任何的费用，
而且片商可以随时取消合作，
她竟然自愿答应片商的要求，
把公司的commission减少，
自己也不接受任何利润，
就算做了这个惩罚自己的决定，
公司还吃亏，可能自己还要赔钱，
她只能承认办事能力差，
她现在盘算一定不能定下飞机票，
又要再电话上跟不了解的男朋友吵架，
很讨厌这种事情但她还能怎样
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以上2单合作，本来是她可以
达成今年目标的主要协议，
而且也是让她可以永远脱离的合作
现在竟然变成一个牢笼
因为她把东西看得太重，
结果把自己也拖下水，
现在一身的麻烦
怎么办去解决？
没有人会愿意承担您的屎，
这么愚蠢的员工你听说过吗？
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do not ask me questions when you are suppose to be questioned as well!
i am too nice. i am just WAY too F nice.
i think i am nice, i believe i am nice, really.
nice to the point of being a disadvantage to self
like a big discount and slash by people who dare to
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i dont mind if this is a FAIR & EQUAL situation,
but when you directed a question to me,
and not looking at yourself the 'criminal'
i suspect your sense of fairness and equality!
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FYI i make it a point to arrive at the office
830am EVERYDAY,
even if it means i have to argue with my brother
who i should pity cos he starts work at 930am,
just for my sake of NOT wanting to be late,
he sacrifice one hour of his precious sleep,
just so i can follow my company's timing!
i drive like a mad woman on the streets of KL,
just because i want to make that stupid time!
because i want keep up with discipline,
because i wont forgive myself if i break the rules,
because i am a f timid law abiding good citizen!
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i rush like crazy and i'm still one of the first few
in the office alongside with a few team members,
now what is the justification of THIS QUESTION
when YOU saunter into the office at 915am everyday??!!
asking me this i-cant-believe-u'd-even-asked question
"are you late for work today? where were you at 9am?"
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you continue chatter along saying
"i switch on gtalk, (msngr for work) u were not online,
i asked ABC where were u, ABC says u're not in yet"
and sounding like some school disciplinary teacher,
i didnt know how to respond just bcos i was too F nice
that is so wrong of accusing me just cos i wasnt online,
and for your freaking information i am already here
even before ABC has parked the car in the parking lot,
i was talking to a colleague about his baby, ask him,
also i went and tapau nasi lemak & eat it in the office,
and it wasnt fresh so i felt sick i went to the toilet
now i shall answer your question very nicely
"i was in the toilet bangsai, sick from nasi lemak"
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how i wish i had the guts to retort by asking you
the EXACT same question & DEMAND an answer
just the way you did to me, but im such a coward,
you actually came to the office close to 11am today
because our dear boss and management is not around,
i am sooooo mad angry but i just cant say it out loud,
there's no way i can brush that tone of yours away,
i am not wrong, and i want you to know that!
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i wish im more assertive, maybe i can then step on a few toes,
maybe i will ruined moods, maybe i will kill friendship,
maybe i will make 90% of ppl dislike me,
cos i am stubborn, mean, selfish, and everything me
but one things for sure, i dont have to feel sorry
for not standing up for myself ever again!
i wish this day will come, the day when i am blunt,
so blunt that you cant call me nice anymore,
and you will realize & miss the niceness about me,
even if its over sugar coated, i choose to be nice,
i will try my best to create less harm & more nice,
so i'll let you win this time
i want to move my blog to another domain what do i do?
i wanna move my blog to another domain,
cos this one doesnt have all the updated blog feature :(
i cant even space here properly...
thats why it always looks untidy...
what do i do ... just move???
in and out of bali within 24 hours for a white wedding - 4
we walked under glass roof designed to enter the villa,
a slim & long pool frames the side of the walkway,
with tiny fountain bubbling a welcoming feeling,
the villa is a full wood designed with glass panels
walled from top to the bottom with sides facing the sea
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we were greeted by an amazing angelic white sight,
of 5 huge grand tables across the open green lawn,
where all the guests are seated outdoor
the DJ at the turntable turned and said hello,
he is positively DDG (drop dead gorgeous).... (^_^)
(dear berries all of you so GOTTA be there whey...)
first sign of what to expect of boss's wedding guests...
of cos connie and i didnt know what to expect initially,
i was nervous, walking gingerly slow holding onto connie,
we didnt know anyone else apart from boss & wifey,
and the fact that we dont hang out with boss at all,
makes it even weird for me per se....
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then we saw this tall figure that looks like boss
walking towards us across the big open green lawn,
both of us literally ran towards him like long lost friend,
hugged him midway pass the DJ and before the guests table,
"i am so so so glad and happy you both made it!" he said
his wife was so worried about us earlier and keep asking him
why arent we here yet cos its already 8pm!
words of congratulations keep tumbling out amidst of explaning
why we are late (unintentionally) and lovely place etc
we finally get to congrats them both together,
boss got us drinks we took only like 4 pics altogether,
they easily blend and talked while i sip my vodka,
and by the time we excuse ourselves, my vodka is gone
connie still has her drink half full... i was that 'OCCUPIED'...
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connie n i head towards the outdoor guests table,
looking for Adam & James, our colleagues,
and our only possible partner in crime to enjoy the evening
(im saying that because i am NOT a social butterfly...)
but both their table was full and i REALLY dont want to
sit with strangers on another table and introduce myself,
i am THAT uncharmingly anti social....
Adam was kind enough to let us take his seat,
(after much nonsense as usual saying we could sit on his knee)
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we head to the nice buffet line of western food,
i filled my plate like a no manners hungry girl, FULL PLATE.
i was soooo embarrased looking at others & their tiny servings,
but i got the better of myself, my stomach justifies my actions!
and head back to Adam's tables and gorge in my food,
and avoid any eye contact in every possible way.
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i must admit everybody look amazing, its a great sight,
halfway thru our meal it rained! so we adjourn into the villa,
its a simple 4 big box square designed split into 8 sections,
for the main function of the villa from kitchen, dining,
guest rooms, living hall, entertainment rooms etc
(i think im right, tho i didnt explore all)
it was so huge you need a butler to run around for you!
while the guests dance away connie & i ate in peace
meaning we ate in the private dining hall
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we stayed longer in the dining hall delaying time
so we dont have to join the rest of the guests outside,
and we explored the toilet in the villa, yes seriously,
its WORTH exploring, and connie took a pic of me
while i pee pee, yes, it was funny & i had no choice,
the toilet is sooo big like my house in taman melati,
and i couldnt pee alone.... so connie was there waiting ....
it was one of those silly things you do and laugh about
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when we finally head out to the entrance area (indoor)
rain stopped and everyone was already dancing,
we had more drinks, coke & juice with boss as company
watching people dancing & frolicking under the stars ....
in and out of bali within 24 hours for a white wedding - 3
lets proceed to the much anticipated white wedding venue, :D
it was 8pm when we finally got a cab to send us to Batu Belig,
technically 15mins away from where we stay, taxi was Rph50k
........ i didnt bargain..... resulting to an earful frm connie!
(we're both from sales dprtmnt & suppose to be bargainers!)
the most DUH thing is.... i think the beautiful villa captivated
both me and connie at first sight right in front of us,
we stepped into the main entrance not EXPECTING
and we COMPLETELY, TOTALLY, ABSOLUTELY,
forgot to take ANY picture of the beautiful villa!!!
it was so beautiful, and the guests were ALL WHITE,
my boss is already quite good looking, seriously la,
his & wifey's friends are the beautiful & handsome,
made the setting feels like this is a magazine spread
i resort into googling the pics to paint you
a vivid picture of the beautiful wedding setting
here....
(try google the term Phalosa Villa in Google Image)
thats why i ended up googling just for you to see,
my favorite?? THE ENTRANCE to the villa!
actually... it could be the sunset moment
that we both missed about 7pm... SIGH!!!!
in and out of bali within 24 hours for a white wedding - 2
before we proceed to the anticipated beautiful white wedding,
let me share with you the WORDS i learn in Bali.... :)
which is applicable to you tooo!!!!
our cab driver name is Ketut, i was curious,
cos Ketut sounds like Kentut
(Kentut is FART in Malay language)
Ketut explains: it means child No.4 in the family.
and there are thousands of Ketut in Bali!
i was so amused!!! so i proceed to ask him more lor!
im child No.1 so i am .... WAYAN
(sounds like Wayang, Film in Malay!!! so artsy fartsy)
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Wayan, Putu, Gede for 1st born male child
Wayan, Putu, Iluh for 1st born female child
Made, Kadek, Nengah for 2nd born child.
Nyoman, Komang for 3rd borm male and female children
Ketut for 4th born male or female children.
The 5th born reverts back to the list for 1st born children
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the massage lady name was Putu, so she was No.1
the massage lady for connie was Nyoman, she was No.3,
the cab driver that sends us to the wedding venue is Wayan,
nearly EVERYONE we met uses the name above!!!
im like how do u even differentiate who is who then??? LOL~
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let me try it with some friends, hehehehe...
Ariel & Amanda is Wayan, same as me
Scott & brother is Made, Kadek/Negah ha!!
Sabrina & Mary Berry is Nyoman
Ben Leong & Connie is Ketut!~~
these words amuses me thruout the trip
when we're talking to the locals,
we totally made an impression lo!
in and out of bali within 24 hours for a white wedding - 1
of course it is NOT my wedding la
the first time we receive the msg from boss,
announcing his 4 (FOUR!!!) prong wedding,
in Singapore, UK, Bali and Malaysia
i've already made up my mind to attend in Bali
i love attending weddings, of cos it means much more
to attend a wedding of someone u know,
but even if its complete stranger,
and even if its the marathon like chinese dinner
i still like it cos i like to look at lovely couples! teee heee...
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invitation says the wedding will be held in a private villa,
and the theme is white dress code
AND because there's currently alcohol shortage in Bali
(im amazed this can actually happened!!! READ IT
HERE)
guests are encourage to bring vodka/gin/whiskey of their choice,
so we shopped at duty free in LCCT before catching our flight
yes, when we're paying at the cashier, we can hear our names
announced over the speakers, and we look like alcoholics, (>.<)
running towards the gates with Bacardi & Absolut Vodka in hand!
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o ya, we booked flights to Bali, just connie (colleague) & I,
departing from KL and arriving in Bali at 3pm.....
and departing from Bali approx 8am on Sunday!!!!!
thats exactly 16 hours in Bali!!!!!
FREAKING CRAZY the both of us????
in and out of Bali within 24 hours for a wedding dinner!!!!!
the whole reason is because these are the cheapest tickets,
im so giam siap to spend more for later tickets....
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its my first time to Indonesia, (GASP!)
there was ABSOLUTELY no time sight seeing!
checked in $50, change into bikini + dress,
walk 5 mins towards east where the beach was,
EVERYONE thought we're japanese and keep asking
"Konnichiwa, Nihon-jin desu ka?"
i answered "Iie, Mareshia-jin desu"
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its a TOTALLY different beach that i knew from experience,
in Malaysia, nice beaches are typically.....
Sandy White Crystal Sang & Clear Blue Sea Shimmering
here, there are surfer dude & girls, looking so HOT.
stepping on to Seminyak beach, your feet sinks
into the very fine dark GREY sand, with silvery glitter,
it could be oil? since its called MINYAK (ie oil in Malay)
long stretch of shoreline and dark dark deep sea,
with at least 3 ft high wave crashing the shore,
and the smell is not of the tropical smell but of
faint cold chilly smell, speaking of CHILLY,
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thats my FAVORITE part of this beach,
the sinking evening sun is hot on your skin,
but the breeze is chilly! chilly as Gohtong Jaya point!
seriously!! we found a spot where we could lie down,
had to rent the chairs & bcos we wanted a massage too,
it was initially Rph60k just for the chairs to lie down!
but manage to bargain to Rph150k incl massage
for 2 person, thats about RM26 per pax only!
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this is the SECOND time i had a massage,
which was very very ticklish for me so i had a fear,
but this time, i was tempted to go for a massage,
because the ladies look super experienced
and has big large hands that looks unticklish...
and it was worth every cent, we were there from
5pm - 6pm ish... enjoying drowsing to sleep,
my boss wedding is suppose to start at 5pm,
but anyway he says we can follow Indonesian time,
i take that meaning as it will start much later :)
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really hungry after massage, cant wait till wedding dinner
so we ordered beef burger to share with the amazing
after snacking we showered and get pretty in angelic white,
i had to wear connie's dress, thank god it fits,
cos i DO NOT HAVE any white outfit for this occasion,
the beautiful & much awaited white wedding dinner....
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i could not believe my eyes when i arrive ... it was 8pm,
the hidden private sanctuary amidst the dark night...
its a dream come true venue for a memorable evening....
白色蚊帐非常好用！！！
大力推荐，去年圣诞节的wishlist就是这一个，
所以同事买了一个白色送我（一模一样的）
在ikea 买很便宜才RM30呢！！！
因为我家里蚊子多的很，(很多树嘛)
我是靠这窗口自然风晾凉睡着的
还好我不喜欢开风扇睡觉
（因为睡得头昏）房间也没有冷气，
我的蚊帐整晚都在保护我，
看着那些肚子饿得要命的蚊子，
我睡得更甜呢！！！真的！
其实我弟弟也有一个蚊帐，
但因为他风扇的位置一直
会把蚊帐吹掉所以就不好用了
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终结来说，如果蚊子每晚都喜欢陪伴您，
而你又不是很喜欢他们的话，蚊帐就是答案，
真的大力大力推荐哦！
我还想要买第二个呢！
为什么你不能赢呢？~~~
你知道吗，在我工作范围，
其中主要的是要关注
其他国家的体育和运动选手的新闻，
这犹如追看国际新闻一样，
及时新闻的轰动就影响整个局势
就像接到当麦克杰克逊死讯时，
突然间他的biography/documentary特好卖！
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越南这个国家也是我管理的区域之一，
很可惜他们大多数爱看剧情/娱乐内容，
所以这几年来我同事和我就接管越南，
很艰难才能真正推销一些体育赛事，
我也把很多的时间放在教导客户，尤其是
他们国家羽毛球选手 nguyen thien minh,
在羽毛球排名第11名（从第40名慢慢爬的）
也算是越南在国际体育最高排名的运动健将。
意思就是说越南没有其他运动健将排名比他更高了
所以你看越南体育背景其实是很bleak 的，
不像马来西亚，我们壁球排第一，羽毛球也是。
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上周末的菲律宾羽毛球公开赛，
越南选手在入选名单内排第2，
（因为马来西亚/中国/韩国前10名选手没参加）
所以我很开心很开心，没有高手
他夺得冠军的机会，稳拿手中呢！
怎么知道，原来他一向以来在大型比赛
会很紧张很紧张，所以竟然在半决赛的时候
输给了香港的选手， 而且对手才排名第8呢。
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就因为这样，我要卖羽毛球的机会又减少了，
因为客户会说，根本没有机会看国家选手呀，
买来干嘛！为什么你不能赢呢。。。？?
thoughts (options) on working in a foreign country
its about philippine based recruitment agency,
recruiting cleaners for a french company,
the next thought that popped into my head,
was the question i asked at the canadian embassy
as FATE would have it, MEDIA is not one of it.
great. just great. i went thru the list on the link, tough. :(
well, alternatively, i could pursue a Master in Canada,
and im as eligible as anyone to apply for any MEDIA job.
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foreign job agencies somehow reminds me (the drama queen)
this potentially sounds like human trafficking, SERIOUSLY,
it is prbbly one of the most lucrative business,
and even though i've not watched the film
Takencoincidentally the setting was in France
a thriller about a girl who was kidnapped
by slave traders and how she was geniusly saved,
it gives me creeps when i come across job agency
that recruits foreigners for these jobs,
of course with all due respect credits to genuine ones,
i think its a big big big step (or risk) to take,
i remember a friend told me before she is so tempted
to work in America as nanny because of all the benefits,
(btw she has a degree in advertising, brilliant student)
i looked at her, i wonder, there's nothing wrong with
working at a 9 to 5 job in Malaysia with ur current skills,
do you really want to give up everything u've acquired,
and go become a nanny and not knowing if ur prospective
host family is going to be nice / normal ...?
(well, it could also be a start of a fairy tale life
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im not saying that nannies or maids are NOT honorable,
im saying, can you even comprehend the idea 100%?
some may argue that in 'advanced/developed' countries,
maids and nannies are treated fairly (as opposed to Malaysia)
and that the pay justifies whatever that you're doing for ur boss,
because its damn good pay and its always the thought of,
you could always go away and find another job
if you dont like being a nanny or maid in that country,
because you're already there and why not explore, right?
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i guess a lot of it its up to your choice and fate in ur hands,
how much can you control really?
do you remember the point of pursuing advance studies
in a specific highly skilled field in order to be in a
managerial / management position in ur home country,
or its really alright to work as a maid and nanny,
because its a mean that justifies the end result?
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really what are the choices available in our hands?
and as i ponder on all these questions,
i have a very stubborn (super stubborn) streak,
that says i will never allow myself be subsidize
no matter where i am, i can only go up not down,
i know its easy to say, but life choices is so tough,
that sometimes the only choice you have
is to uproot everything and
start all over again from the bottom
do we have the courage to do that?
