Dream and leave out all the rest

i remember discussing dreams with Amanda,
either mine or hers, it all started,
because one of my dreams, happened to someone else,
and in some weird instances, when a friend told me,
i felt a really weird sensation, and i asked her a question,
and she answered exactly the words and
what i have myself said inside a dream......
it was a dream that gives me the creeps
about how powerful a thought can manifest and happened.

My dream?
it was a car accident, i was crying and i saw a gas truck,
i accelerate and crash into the truck, and in the process,
killed a girl by the side of the highway and myself too,
of course, thats the whole idea of suicide aint it?
next, the dream cut into a funeral, more crying,
my mom, crying to my dad, she hardly cries,
so its disturbing to have her crying in my dream,
and when my dad asked her why, she said,
she can't find a nice photo of me for my funeral,
i woke up with a wet teary face but thats considered normal.

A week later...................................................
a colleague who cant read mandarin seek my help,
to look for a mandarin news article of a car crash in penang,
the girl was killed instantly by the lady driver,
(my dream did not occur to me then) i was trying my best,
to help, but couldn't find the article, somehow, im worried,
i keep checking on my colleague for the next 2 days,
for the news, he updated me here and there,
until..... one morning i saw another colleague of mine,
at her desk, something about her makes me want to
go to her and sit down and talk, and she told me,
about an accident, of a girl, in penang, a family friend,
and many bits and pieces, i said "wait a minute...."
and realize that both colleagues are talking about the same accident!
i was freak out by then, and as my colleague talk more,
the pieces gradually come into picture, i dont know how,
but she came to the point of the funeral, and her dad told her,
that the girl's mom was really sad cos
"she can't find a nice photo of the daughter for the funeral"

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i think, to me the most disturbing and most genuine dream,
seem to occur, when i am at my lowest, (which is pretty often),
and when i go to sleep (which i look forward to everytime)
i thought i can escape the world, but in the end, i think,
i begin to be trapped within my own dream, and now,
i cant go to sleep without worrying what my next dream would be...
and i dont think many can understand the energy that runs beneath,
and how important it is to stop me from worrying & dreaming,
i have so much hate, pain, love, care, happiness, sadness in me,
its making up stories and shooting it to everyone else,
and when i tell someone about this intuition i have,
be it good or bad............. i mean it, and i really really mean it.
they will laugh it off and say i think too much,
but i see it unfolding and it scares me,
to someone i care or love, they dont believe me, they assure me,
but i know they are lying to themselves without knowing it,
it will happen, its so vivid, its happening and only i see it,
some say, i shouldnt tell the world about it, so i can stop it.
some say, i should tell the world about it, to stop it.
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i dont know how....recently i had the weirdest dream,
its about my own safety...and linkin park concert
and their new song (i've never even heard of it until the dream)
its leave out all the rest, i'm with chester at the concert,
then i left the concert, i drove my mom's car, i came to a road block,
saw that it is no police, someone is impersonating to harm people,
i saw the knife, i swerve to the right, and drove between apartments,
they chase me, i reached a petrol station...bright lit, many ppl,
but there was the knife again...and then the concert,
and then there were kids....and faces i dont know,
but there were 4 kids, 4 adults including me,
we were all hiding under a table in the petrol kisosk,
hiding from someone, then there were police sirens,
nobody was killed, but someone amongst us,
is not human at all.... its so weird....
i cant open my eyes, i was scared. really scared.
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this week is an up and down week, i want someone to care for me,
but no, no one is there, i laugh to myself, who would want to care for me?
haha, how childish i am. this world is cruel, take of yourself stupid.