everything just gets better

i just deleted everything accidentally while transferring from the computer to my thumbdrive. and i dont have a system backup...... im pretty calm i think it hasnt sink in yet.... but now....4 years of memories just like that flush down to the thrash, the day just gets 'better', after all those sad moments i dont know how much better it will go now, thats really the last straw....4 years of one of my most important memory with all of u, just gone. gone. gone. maybe its time to forget everything and start afresh. 4 years... the effort.... my LJMU homework, all gone, my hardwork, my most prize work all in one folder gone, the collections, the assignments i did for him, the special notes from special someone, everything gone. i really dont know whats next. and i have no one, absolutely no one to talk to or cry to about it, no one is gonna be there anymore, whats the point, all these events are signs to me that everything is so fickle that it is meaningless to create more memories to keep, because i will lose them anyway, one fine day.