do not ask me questions when you are suppose to be questioned as well!

i am too nice. i am just WAY too F nice.

i think i am nice, i believe i am nice, really.

nice to the point of being a disadvantage to self

like a big discount and slash by people who dare to

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i dont mind if this is a FAIR & EQUAL situation,

but when you directed a question to me,

and not looking at yourself the 'criminal'

i suspect your sense of fairness and equality!

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FYI i make it a point to arrive at the office

830am EVERYDAY,

even if it means i have to argue with my brother

who i should pity cos he starts work at 930am,

just for my sake of NOT wanting to be late,

he sacrifice one hour of his precious sleep,

just so i can follow my company's timing!

i drive like a mad woman on the streets of KL,

just because i want to make that stupid time!

because i want keep up with discipline,

because i wont forgive myself if i break the rules,

because i am a f timid law abiding good citizen!

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i rush like crazy and i'm still one of the first few

in the office alongside with a few team members,

now what is the justification of THIS QUESTION

when YOU saunter into the office at 915am everyday??!!

asking me this i-cant-believe-u'd-even-asked question

"are you late for work today? where were you at 9am?"

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you continue chatter along saying

"i switch on gtalk, (msngr for work) u were not online,

i asked ABC where were u, ABC says u're not in yet"

and sounding like some school disciplinary teacher,

i didnt know how to respond just bcos i was too F nice

that is so wrong of accusing me just cos i wasnt online,

and for your freaking information i am already here

even before ABC has parked the car in the parking lot,

i was talking to a colleague about his baby, ask him,

also i went and tapau nasi lemak & eat it in the office,

and it wasnt fresh so i felt sick i went to the toilet

now i shall answer your question very nicely

"i was in the toilet bangsai, sick from nasi lemak"

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how i wish i had the guts to retort by asking you

the EXACT same question & DEMAND an answer

just the way you did to me, but im such a coward,

you actually came to the office close to 11am today

because our dear boss and management is not around,

i am sooooo mad angry but i just cant say it out loud,

there's no way i can brush that tone of yours away,

i am not wrong, and i want you to know that!

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i wish im more assertive, maybe i can then step on a few toes,

maybe i will ruined moods, maybe i will kill friendship,

maybe i will make 90% of ppl dislike me,

cos i am stubborn, mean, selfish, and everything me

but one things for sure, i dont have to feel sorry

for not standing up for myself ever again!

i wish this day will come, the day when i am blunt,

so blunt that you cant call me nice anymore,

and you will realize & miss the niceness about me,

even if its over sugar coated, i choose to be nice,

i will try my best to create less harm & more nice,

so i'll let you win this time