confirmation means preparation.

as much as i want to just hole up in my room to sleep,
and forget about the rest of the world and its problems,
i know i still have to keep myself going, even this,
preparation for the volunteer trip seems impossible,
even with all these preparations i know im still not ready.
its bcos i've not resolve my problems, how can i let go? but....
thats the confirmation letter. confirming volunteer status.
thats the economy class air ticket.confirming a return ticket.
that's the forex of RenMinBi and all the savings i have,
confirming i am officially Ringgit Broke....
that's the newspaper i collect from mom's office,
confirming that i'm somewhat well prepared....but where am i now? preparing all these and more....?
and then there's me lying on the bed worried sick about
the work i have to leave behind.... im very very worried,
i know im gonna have a breakdown, i just dunno when.