IF I CHOOSE TO BUY THE TICKETS

I honestly do not know where to begin,

Have you come across a time,

when you have to make a decision right now,

which was actually an echo from the past?

~~~~~~~****~~~~~~

sometime in 2006

"hi ben, i want to go HK, any tips??"

"HK is nice."

"i plan next december, im going there bcos i want to

shop in EDISON CHEN's shop!!!"

"december its chilly"

"awesome!!!!!"

~~~~****~~~

January 20th 2007

It's Ben's birthday today,

for nostalgic sake, I click asiantour.com

for Ben's tournament schedule.

seems like golf course or airport

are places where i usually see him

I look at all the venues

he will be playing in Asia...

but why shud I travel just to go see him?

We dont even talk anymore.....

~~~~~~*****~~~~~~

May 2007

Shuxian, Yin & I left for Siem Reap, Cambodia

After 5 days of dramatic experience

And many tears at the airport

Shuxian said with a firm conviction,

"i want to come back here, maybe even this year"

I said, with a heavy heart

"i dont know if i will ever come back,

even if i do, it will be 3 or 4 years later"

So I'm back in the office

I click asiantour.com

its a habit i cant fight

bcos i miss ben and this is the only place

whr i can realistically know his existence

I scroll all the way down,

and stop at the venue,

November in Siem Reap.

I break into a smile

cos I know that I will not return

to Siem Reap this year,

i've said it so firmly.

Bcos I have already been there,

and its a valid reason to scold myself

if I am ever tempted to just fly there

and watch Ben play golf.

and so my life goes on mundanely

~~~~~*****~~~~~

September 2007

I traveled to Moalboal, Cebu, Philippines

just to be alone, to kill time,

i took MaryBerry's advice and

took a PADI open water diving course

but before i go, i click on asiantour.com

just to see...with somewhat of anticipation

that Ben maybe in Philippines??

no he's not,

i sighed, and also was relieve

so i could just concentrate

on spending time alone

and read and meet people and talk

and eat and watch the sky and listen

and miss ben a lot a lot alone.

~~~~~****~~~

Meeting new people is always super scary

i have no social grace whatsoever when dealing

with strangers, all i have is a very ignorant idea,

that everyone is nice in this world,

thus with that in mind i can actually talk to anyone

and so i met

Giustino Consorte - Italy

Chris Cotton - NewZealand

Dracula Dan - Romania

Chris & Joost - Netherland

Rob & Scott - Canada

and so many more people

each of them are so special to me

and i'm very cliche, i always

replace the unknown with the word -fate-

was it bcos i first met Dracula Dan

the funny guy who thinks that the local club

consist of ugly lady-boys ever existed in this world

or was it bcos we just didnt want to sleep

and end up talking abt so many things

like how to spell MCKAY & MUNTEAN

and also facebook.com

so fate has it, that the next day

i signed up and found Scott McKay there

send the photos we all took and left it unattended

~~~~~****~~~~

October 2007

I met MaryBerry's friend, Kevin Yeoh

during our Perhentian Island, Terengganu trip

Kevin uses the facebook.com lingo

like "superpoke", and with that

he kinda reminded me that

facebook.com might be fun....

that week, Scott sent me a msg

and said that he wants to come to MAS

to watch the MotoGP race in Sepang

well, its Visit Malaysia Year 2007,

why not?? so me being very gung-ho

and sincerely wish to invite more visitor

to check out my country

did the necessary- must see sight seeing tour-

to make sure Scott has a pleasant stay in MAS.

~~~~~****~~~~~

November 2007

my colleague Juliana announced that

she had to forego 2 tickets to SiemReap, Cambodia.

I told her I've been there and

I dont really want to go there so soon,

i did bug MaryBerry, if she wants

then maybe I'd go with her,

she nearly said yes, but when i told her

"there's no diving spot, its all temples"

she changed her mind, (-_-)

so i thought i might buy the tickets for my parents

and while i was calculating the cost and

clicking facebook.com I saw Scott's msg

saying he needs to clear his holidays and

is thinking about coming to Malaysia again

i sent a msg saying that he shud

go somewhere else for novelty sake

and sent him airasia.com website

it did occured to me that he can buy the tickets

off juliana, which would be good,

so juliana wont have to waste that RM750++

but i really dont want to go there so soon,

but i sent that info to him as well,

and he replied in this super happy hyper mode

saying he really want to visit siem reap.

okayssss...... now i have to

1. figure out if i really want to teman scott

2. my boss will be sooo MAD at me taking leave again!

3. how do i explain to my parents that i am travelling agn?

4. honestly, how can i save for my macau + HK trip??

~~~~~****~~~~

I kinda decide that I might as well go

1. since Scott is so happy, and really,

2.my boss is very understanding with holidays

(i honestly believe so)

3. i can bring Scott to meet my parents,

so they will "allow" me to travel

4. as for $$$, many ways to save...

So i hop over to MaryBerry's,

when i saw the TV promo for Asian Tour,

and guess who i saw??

Ben Leong!!

(@_@)!! (^_^)!!

i squeal and pointed at the TV

poking MaryBerry,

see??? ben ben ben!!!!

Only Sofi & Kim manage to see Ben

i just MELT completely

so i rush to asiantour.com

to check out Ben's latest tournament

and guess what i saw......

Ben will be in Siem Reap, Cambodia

the EXACT SAME DATE that

Scott & I will be there,

-IF I CHOOSE TO BUY THE TICKETS-

Coincidence or Fate?

Its really time for me to decide.